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Friday, July 27, 2012

how i found my life (part 2)


after my very scary dream..i was thinking about it for days..but i didnt know what to do...i didnt know where to start...i was just confuse...

n then one day we went for this talk...a very basic talk on rukun islam...n the uztaz  was talkinng about the famouse hadith that everyone always quotes..." All muslims goes to Jannah/heaven/paradise..."


yes, that hadith is absolutely true, its a hadith sahih bukhari..BUT, yes there is a BUT, but there is a continuation to the hadith, that nobody really bothers to find out...

HADITH BUKHARI book no 92, hadith no 384 (9/7280)


Narrated Abu Huraira: Allah's Apostle said, "All my followers will enter Paradise except those who refuse." They said, "O Allah's Apostle! Who will refuse?" He said, "Whoever obeys me will enter Paradise, and whoever disobeys me is the one who refuses (to enter it)."


see the highlighted part " those who refuse"...i was shivering...n then someone asked the uztaz, if someone doesnt pray 5 times a day, are they part of the muslims that disobeys or who refuse?


and terus the uztaz says, a muslim who does not solat 5 times a day, 


1) is a muslim who does not believe in Allah SWT who has commanded us to do so in the Quran n through our messenger Muhammad SAW..
2) a muslim who does not believe in the Quran, which is part of RUkun IMAN
3) a muslim who does not believe in the teachings of the Prophet Muhammad SAW and all the hadith...


 he asked the audience balik, do u think that person is believer or someone who disobeys Allah SWT??? 


after the talk i kept on asking myself, if i dont pray 5 times a day, n i die, does that mean i might die as a disbeliever??  i kept on telling myself, but Allah SWT is maha pengampun, so maybe i can be forgiven...but Allah SWT also does not lie, and he has promised in the Quran, disbeliever will be punished..he has promised in the hadith that those who disobeys will not even masuk syurga...


what have i done to deserve to enter Jannah?? 

but i thought to myself, well takpe, before i die, i will straight away mengucap...then Allah SWT might forgive me for all my sins...

guess what?? a few weeks later, i was in the car, with my friends, driving at 120km/h at north south highway..it was in rawang i think...it was night time...we were all happily talking, suddenly there was a black bull or black lembu, we coudlnt see coz gelap, just crossed the road, n suddenly duduk on the fast lane...masa tu the highway was on construction, nak besarkan to 3 lanes.... my friend that was driving, got shocked, we had to avoid the giant bull so he swerved to the left...the side of the car langgar the bulls ekor...n our car pusing2 loose  control.....n all i heard around me at that point was "OMG",  SHIT..and so on...

alhamdulillah Allah SWT protected us, we didnt hit anything, the car in front of us langgar the curb abit but he is fine as well....

after that incident i kept on thinking if i die, will i sempat or not say the syahadah...coz during the accident, mmg tak sempat nak say anythning....

a few weeks later i heard a talk by sheikh Feiz about death... one thing he said that i could not forget " how can u die in Lailhaillallah whe you dont leave in Lailahaillallah...." " only a believer can say the syahadah before they die, because the syaitan is not strong enough to stop it, their iman is strong..."


is my iman strong???


to be continued


May Allah forgives all our sins, and make us among those yang beriman....
May Allah SWT guide all non practising muslims, and strengthen their iman...

PART 1 - http://sabsabby.blogspot.com/2012/03/how-i-found-my-life.html

2 comments:

Anis_Apis said...

I read your post shivering and with teary eyes...keep questioning am I deserve to enter Jannah. Thanks Kak Sab for opening my eyes...Hopefullt it is never too late for me T_T

My Journey said...

inshaAllah..

May Allah SWT guide all of us to the right path..ameen..