I've been meaning to write the entry from beginning itself but i never had the time...so finally i'm forcing my self to do it now!!!!
ok it was early 2007, I just got back from a great holiday with my girlfriends to langkawi..oh btw, if u guys want a simple holiday please stay at
malibest, pantai cenang..i love that place..ok back to my story, I had dinner with one of my very close guy friend back then ROD...
So me & rod, and my 2 bridesmaids went for dinner in hartamas...and i complained to Rod, "omg i've been single for so long, u have so many guy friends, introduce la me to one of them".
I swear Rod knows a WHOLE load of guys here.... And Rod, was like...why sabby? And i told him.."i'm lonely, i hate that i go through life everyday having nobody special to share it with, apart from my friends and family of course" but having a partner is different...U guys know the difference right...hehehe...anyway..he was reluctant at first, for a reason that I can't seem to remember at all...so finally after i pujuk him for a while, he took out his phone...he was like" ok which guy do u want"?? i was like "what you want me to choose now?" he said " ya lah"..and do you guys want to know what rod did next?
He opened his picture file in the phone and started flipping pictures like a catalog, and showed me some of his guy friends..hehehe.OMG it was sooo funny..us girls was just laughing like crazy, and had a great time criticising on the many guy's picture wesaw in his phone...i was so malu at that time though..secretly....
Rod was like "come one sabby, just choose 1...and then i told him" i want a nice guy, no more bad boys,just a decent boy and he cannot smoke" he said.."hmmm non smoker...ohhh ok i have one for you...you like pretty boys kan?" we all just laughed...So he showed a picture of himself with habib, who just got back from perhentian(oh ya perhentian is fav island), while we were in langkawi.."hmm so he likes beaches too" rod said "yup just like you" and then i said, "OK hook us up"...so the conversation ended here..
All of us had our dinner...and then after dinner rod was like " sabby, he is here already" i was like WHAT?? today ke, are U serious, are you insane?? i was SOOOO not dressed, and i wasn't prepared to meet him..Rod was like, " ok too late he is here already"..urgh i was soo angry and nervous..and there he was walking towards our table .....Love at first sight?????.......
hmmm...yeah right
Habib came with like 5 people at the time..so there was like 10 people at our table..Me and habib, didn't say a word the whole night..he sat sooo far..and me and my girls, were giggling quietly and said, ok this guy is soooo not my type....
so a few weeks went by..and habib was completely off my mind..even the next day i dah lupa, coz i knew he was not my type...Habib was so berisi..and i was petite...i was only 44kgs at the time, and i was very mean..i never went out with Big guys...
one day, i got a call, it was habib...we finally spoke for the first time...so we were chitchatting...and i thought in my mind, oh crap...The more i talked to him the more i know he is not my type...
so a few days went by, he started calling me more often, sadly we still didn't have much connection......I was a working girl who was looking for stability in a decent guy after my worst relationship breakup, wheras habib was still studying, looking for just a steady...we were at different places in life...
It was one fine day, when habib called and asked me out...I was really trying to avoid it...but he was so serious..so he made a deal with me " we go out on 1 date, if still no connection, then thats it" and I finally agreed...
our first date was at Curve...We had tea at Winter warmers...oh ya it was the first time we spoke face to face...Guess what...I actually had soooo much fun.after that we went out again....and again...
and again...heehehe
..after a few more outings...we put the whole life issue aside and decided to just hang out for fun, " we both agreed to a "nothing serious" relationship..
yeah right..coz its 2010 and InshaAllah in 4 days, he is going to be my husband...
the couple of years, has been the most difficult years of my life..when i first met habib, i was a selfish girl, who only cared about my reputation, who i hung out with and my looks...shallow kan?
He sorta change me a little in that sence...made me less shallow then i use to be...through think and thin, habib was there the whole time....through every drastic life changing decisions, pmses, through every bad emotions, my dear habib still stuck by me.
oh do you guys want to know something...even when habib first met me, he had the intentions to change me..jahatkan, so much for accepting me for who I am..
But Alhamdulillah, after a few bad incidents in my life.. Allah SWT gaven me hidayah to move to a better place..to live a life which has meanings to it...for the first 23 years of my life, i never knew the answer to what is my purpose of living in the world...
Its funny how i finaly found the answer.and the answer is sooo simple..Something that we have been thought since small..an answer as simple as being a Muslim...Ohh I will get to that chapter one day..on what I mean as just being a Muslim..there is a much deeper meaning to it, than what has been thought to us in school...
wassalam,
sabby