Baby boy at 18 months

Alhamdulillah its been 1 and half years... This beautiful journey as a mummy...its the most difficult thing i've ever done in my life, but also the most satisfying...

They give me a new purpose in life... May Allah SWT grant all of all of us happiness...

Im just a mother....

If I teach a child to read at school, I'm called a Teacher.
If I teach my child to read Qur'aan and his sunnah Du'aas at home, then I'm just a mother.

If I plan lessons for a class, I'm called a Curriculum Coordinator.
If educate my child home, then I'm just a mother.

If I sit and talk to children an hour each, a week, addressing their needs, I'm a Speech Therapist.
If I engage and help my child with sabr every minute of every day, instill proper aadaab n akhlaaq, then I'm just a mother.

If I look after a patient in the hospital, I'm called a Nurse.
If I nurse my child when they're ill, awake all night: none able to replace my reassuring presence, then I'm just a mother.

If I manage my boss's office, I'm called a Secretary
If I organise my children's lives and my home, a place for everything and everything in its place, then I'm just a mother.

If I prepare a meal in a restaurant, I'm called a Chef.
If I cook nutritious meals daily, made with love, remembered forever, then I'm just a mother.

If I work late worrying about a deal for clients, how to make them as much money as I can, I'm a Career Woman.
If I stay up worrying and planning my children's deeni future, the deeni future of our world, then I'm just a mother.

If I went out with colleagues and peers for dinner, comparing notes on the industry, I'd be Networking.
If I went out picnicking with a local mother & her toddlers, comparing notes on parenting, I'd just be a mother.

If I sing on a stage, I'm an Artist.If I sing a nazm or azkaar every night, the only voice that they want, the only voice that will do, then I'm just a mother.

But we often tend to forget and reliase that being a mother and bringing up our children with the correct tarbiyat is the hardest profession of all.

May Allah make it easy for all the mums-to-be n all those who are already mummys, and grant/make our children Da'ees/Duaat. Aameen

“If a beautiful woman is a jewel...a pious woman is a TREASURE.”


source from: 

http://www.PureMatrimony.com

how i found my life (part 2)

after my very scary dream..i was thinking about it for days..but i didnt know what to do...i didnt know where to start...i was just confuse...

n then one day we went for this talk...a very basic talk on rukun islam...n the uztaz  was talkinng about the famouse hadith that everyone always quotes..." All muslims goes to Jannah/heaven/paradise..."


yes, that hadith is absolutely true, its a hadith sahih bukhari..BUT, yes there is a BUT, but there is a continuation to the hadith, that nobody really bothers to find out...

HADITH BUKHARI book no 92, hadith no 384 (9/7280)


Narrated Abu Huraira: Allah's Apostle said, "All my followers will enter Paradise except those who refuse." They said, "O Allah's Apostle! Who will refuse?" He said, "Whoever obeys me will enter Paradise, and whoever disobeys me is the one who refuses (to enter it)."


see the highlighted part " those who refuse"...i was shivering...n then someone asked the uztaz, if someone doesnt pray 5 times a day, are they part of the muslims that disobeys or who refuse?


and terus the uztaz says, a muslim who does not solat 5 times a day, 


1) is a muslim who does not believe in Allah SWT who has commanded us to do so in the Quran n through our messenger Muhammad SAW..
2) a muslim who does not believe in the Quran, which is part of RUkun IMAN
3) a muslim who does not believe in the teachings of the Prophet Muhammad SAW and all the hadith...


 he asked the audience balik, do u think that person is believer or someone who disobeys Allah SWT??? 


after the talk i kept on asking myself, if i dont pray 5 times a day, n i die, does that mean i might die as a disbeliever??  i kept on telling myself, but Allah SWT is maha pengampun, so maybe i can be forgiven...but Allah SWT also does not lie, and he has promised in the Quran, disbeliever will be punished..he has promised in the hadith that those who disobeys will not even masuk syurga...


what have i done to deserve to enter Jannah?? 

but i thought to myself, well takpe, before i die, i will straight away mengucap...then Allah SWT might forgive me for all my sins...

guess what?? a few weeks later, i was in the car, with my friends, driving at 120km/h at north south highway..it was in rawang i think...it was night time...we were all happily talking, suddenly there was a black bull or black lembu, we coudlnt see coz gelap, just crossed the road, n suddenly duduk on the fast lane...masa tu the highway was on construction, nak besarkan to 3 lanes.... my friend that was driving, got shocked, we had to avoid the giant bull so he swerved to the left...the side of the car langgar the bulls ekor...n our car pusing2 loose  control.....n all i heard around me at that point was "OMG",  SHIT..and so on...

alhamdulillah Allah SWT protected us, we didnt hit anything, the car in front of us langgar the curb abit but he is fine as well....

after that incident i kept on thinking if i die, will i sempat or not say the syahadah...coz during the accident, mmg tak sempat nak say anythning....

a few weeks later i heard a talk by sheikh Feiz about death... one thing he said that i could not forget " how can u die in Lailhaillallah whe you dont leave in Lailahaillallah...." " only a believer can say the syahadah before they die, because the syaitan is not strong enough to stop it, their iman is strong..."


is my iman strong???


to be continued


May Allah forgives all our sins, and make us among those yang beriman....
May Allah SWT guide all non practising muslims, and strengthen their iman...

PART 1 - http://sabsabby.blogspot.com/2012/03/how-i-found-my-life.html

Grille

Salam,

wow the new blogspot is confusing...dahlah im not so good with IT...

anyway as promised i was going to update about my new project, which is doing up my house...

below is the simple patern that i choose for my grille...my loyal readers would know that dari dulu i like simple things...so yes, of course my house simple design as well...

i choose a 3 inch gap instead of 4 inch...also i choose solid steel...btw people, becareful when ur grille man says wrought iron...seriously in malaysia wrought iron is just grille with patterns n flowers n stuff...but its hollow inside...if u want yg tak hollow request for solid steel...dahlah solid steel is waaaaaayyy stronger but cheaper than wrought iron...

our grille man alhamdulillah was easy to work with....dia yg ukur, dia yang buat, dia yg pasang... easy ..alhamdulillah no miscommunication...he is ontime...he said he pasang on this date, true enough he pasang on the date...he might not be the cheapest, but he is so far the easiest contractor that i had to work with..

we got a few quotation...tapi some tu, during nak ukur tu pun dah problem, tak ontime, always delay...so we went for mahal sikit but reliable...

now were in the midst of fixing lights, fans n aircond, plaster ceiling and build in cabinets...so many things at one...May Allah SWT ease all the process..ameen....

New project

Sorry for the long silence...i think in this world there are too many haters, n people who are dengki towards you..its scary..i must learn yo be very carefull with what i blog....

But now i have a new project that im working on...so my posts shall be more on my new project....which is

Project house......

Im very excited with this new journey...May Allah SWT make this journey as smooth n pleasant for all of us, all who is moving in to a house.ameen

I shall do my posts step by step, but please bare in mind, things that i recommend are not the best in the market but its more like what suits my budget the most. Im what u call an " over surveyer".
i like to survey so much on something once i have mastered a product, then only i will make my purchase, hopefully the most value for money choice.....

My next entry inshaAllah will be on grille...

I shall leave this post will the latest picture of my baby.. Alhamdulillah he is 1 years old already... Busy walking, running, climbing....n exploring my mums kitchen. Alhamdulillah im still breastfeeding my baby but he is getting cheekier by the day, feeding sambil pusing2, move here move there, gigit once in a while..fuh boys will be boys...

How I found my life.....

This is going to be a longgggg story... When i started my blog i promised to share how i changed my life. N finally after almost 3 years, only now im blogging about it...

It's a long story....terpaksa Bahagi to a few parts....


It was early feb... Within 1 week I heard that 2 people I knew had passed away..in my heart, suddenly I was thinking about my own death...

A few days passed, I was just preparing to sleep after a long day ... Suddenly I heard my sister knocking on my door.. I opened she asked "did u get the sms??" I told her not yet, my phone is on silent... She said we hv to go hospital now, our close friend is in critical condition...

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He passed away....it's heartbreaking because it was just 4 months ago he had lost his dear father... N now it's him.... May Allah SWT grant him, his father n all of us Muslims Jannah...

Another death?? I asked my self, n this was someone that had filled my memories of growing up....this time it really it hit me, what would happen if I died today?? Will Allah place me in jannah?? For days I had many sleepless night thinking about death....

I was having a life crisis... I was confused with what I wanted in life...I didn't understand what my purpose of life was...I wasn't the best of Muslims... I wasn't a pleasant person with my family.. I only wanted to do what made me happy n I did not care even if it was hurting the people around me and the people that loved me...I was selfish!

But days went by n I kept asking myself what am I doing with my life?? If i died today, would anybody make doa for Allah swt to forgive me?? N I realised, yes my parents n family members would n my righteous friends would...but aren't this the people that I am hurting??

N the "so called" friends that I'm spending most of my time with, I doubt they would make any dua for me, they don't even make dua themselves...

And then I met up with one of my closest friend, i was so nervous, I didn't know what to say to her, coz she had just lost her brother n her father...but when we met, mashaAllah she just had this beautiful smile... We were talking n talking... She was just telling me how Islam has made her strong to face the lost of her brother n father...and I asked " don't u miss our past n all the fun we had??" n she explained that Islam has given her an inner peace that sense of calmness...n I could tell it was sincere because I saw that in her...

A few days went by.. N I bumped into another friend, she too had just found her inner peace from Islam...wow I told myself, I never thought I would see her in tudung....

But I'm a Muslim, then why am I feeling sooooo lost??? I wanted the calmness they had, but i was to scared to loose my life... I was not willing to loose my friends, my job, my what I thought was amazing life....

I wanted to change, but I just couldn't not start.... Something was stoping me... Till 1 night....

I had the scariest dream..... I dream that I had died, I was burried, n my grave was soooooooooo small filled with really scary creatures..... All this creatures were eating me...I was crying for help, but I was ALONE...n finally after what I felt like a long period of time I heard a voice telling me, if u don't change now, this is ur barzakh....

N suddenly I woke up... I was reallly scared, I was shivering n I was crying non stop... I was soo scared I didn't know what to do... I ran to my parents room... I cried n told my mum I had a bad dream... My mom hugged me n baca dua for me. She said see if u don't baca doa before u sleep the syaitan will Kacau u...

But deep inside I knew...that was not syaitan disturbing me, that was a HARD reminder for me that if I keep living my life that way, I would end up like that.......

To be continued

Responsibility as a parent

Someone once told me, don't expect ur children to be a beriman if u yourself are not beriman...

Since I became a mother I feel so scared if my upbringing fails, n my child ends up being a non practicing Muslim. Another person has mentioned " if my child fails, it means I have failed as a mother....so deep kan that statement. But I realise it's true.

When I was growing up, among us siblings Ada yg always get A for exams. I was not a 4flat student like my Sis, but my parents never force me to dpt 4flat,n I asked my parents why they tak marah me?

N my mom explained,that success for her is when her anak is soleh n when we die,we pass the biggest test, which is when the malaikat asks " who is ur god? n we can answer Allah SWT. N that the only way for our body to answer that is if u are a good practicing Muslim during our life in the world.

I love that about my parents, alhamdulillah...they always prioratise on what's more important, like they didnt force me to get straight A's because they knew it was harder for me but easier for my sister... But they are very strict on solat. Everyday without fail my parents will force us to bangun for subuh n also remind us to solat every single waktu, everyday.... N I can tell u is not easy coz we all selalu tido balik, jawab balik and etc... But all that effort that my parents made while growing up,was mashaallah worth it...

Alhamdulillah now we can do that for our kids. N now I realise why my parents did not give up even though it was not an easy thing to do everyday...

But sadly nowdays i see not many parents do that to their kids. Some parents don't wake them up for subuh because kesian the anak wants to sleep....How is that good for the anak? Isn't that leading ur child to the WRONG path?
May Allah SwT guide us all parents to lead their children n future generations to jannah....


So let's start reminding everybody to practice our 5 solat everyday... Let's remind our family, our spouse, our kids, our friends, everyone.... Ameen....

May Allah SWT grant us jannah...
Ameen

P/s:baby boy now can sing,if I sing abcdefg, he will sing abbbbbb...subhanallah...cuteness